i just noticed that i hadn't done a journal in a while..reading my old ones was entertaining to think of how sad i was back then, which wasn't even that long ago it's sort of sad to think that i wasted my time on things..when they were....hmm...useless in the first place, now im doing fine, got a crush on a man with hepatitis c heh, whaddya do whaddya do....and i really really like a BOY who is clean, which one will i end up liking more, probably the man, but hopefully not, hopefully the BOY likes me enough to do something about it, because im tired of wasting my time liking...unlikable people. but. story of my life. who cares? homeschool is going quite tedious but actually sort of cool in a way too because i get to look at it like hmm, wow, this is going to get me into a really good college, then it sort of makes it all worth while but who knows, ill probably run away with the MAN with hep c and have little hep c babies, hes a real nice guy although i can only really talk to him when im drunk becasue...im too nervous the other times, like when he embarrasses me for having a white skirt on....whole world knows huh mags. great stuff, then theres the boy, used to hate him a lot then just started talking and found out weve got a lot in common which was nice, so...who knows...i say that a lot. alright well, long enough. goodnight everyone-me myself and i, possibly maggie and adam heh-